why...why....why

its been a while since i blog....i thought after i get married i will b totally happy but actually it is not.i have 2 think a lot of thing such as my hubby,my parents in law,my lovely son and my family.now i only know that my own family is the best.now me and my hubby is staying together with my parents in law and my my hubby brothers.10 ppl in 1 house...can u imagine that.....my mil is a person who like 2 rule everything(king or queen in the house) and my fil is a person who dun talk much,his big bro is his mama boy who also like his mom attitude and the others is ok 2 me.by the way i m not scared wif my mil coz she is #$%#@!# @#!%@#!....she always brain wash my hubby brain......in front of his son she will treat u gd n at the back she will gossip u.....in my mil heart and mind is onli his elder son....after i gave birth she dun even go to my mom house n have a look at his grandson.....and now oso the same....and now my son already 6 mth plus....my parents in law till now also haven c before my son....many ppl say that it is gd to have a baby boy and for me its different.yesterday nite my sis in law told me something....she say one nite she and her hubby are going to have dinner so the big bro r asking his mom along....then the yougest son ask her mom "did u go and see ur grandson?"and my mil say"why must i go and see my grandson...call them to bring back home lah....i will not going to see him if he is there"then my mil somemore say my hubby is stupid cause choosing me as his wife instead of his ex....how can a mil say like this?the 1st day after i pantang then i have to come back to setapak(2nd home)then at night my mil left me and my son at home alone....that time my son is crying non stop.....its my 1st time having a baby.....so she just left us all alone....then i have to call my mom and luckily my parents came and help me....its was already 9 something and i haven eat ar take my shower....sob sob....why i have such a mil?then till now she will call my hubby and ask me when want to bring the son back home...then i will say no cause she didnt even treat our son as his grandson.like yasterday night me and my hubby argue again because of the same problem...haiz....not i dont want 2 bring my son back its just that my son is super sensitive to ppl and the surroundings...and somemore my son dun even saw my parents in law also....after my son go back home he will vomit and dun even want to sleep....very hard to take care....sometimes my hubby relative will ask why no bring my son back n its hard to tell them wat happen....why my hubby dun even care how i feel?